Snow day…

Today we got some snow, not as much as the blizzard the news said we would get but they sure do like the drama. 

Just wanted to give another update after yesterday’s appointment. They did some blood work and ruled out any infections, which I didn’t really think it was. I also had an ultrasound to rule out blood clot’s, which came back negative, so that’s good.

The orthopedic surgeon that saw me, along with Dr. Spencer’s nurse practitioner, feel that it may just be muscle spasms because my leg’s muscles have been moved around a little bit and are learning to do their job again in a different way, I guess you could say.

The doctor recommended heat, ice, and deep massage on the muscle that hurts, as well as, the areas around the muscle to stimulate the nerves. Heat seems to be working. However, I am still having pain and it is still difficult to move my stump as freely as I was moving it a week ago. 

I’ll be honest, I’m a little bit discouraged. So far the healing process before this last week has been miraculous, amazing and easy. The pain I have experienced this week has been very hard and seems like a setback in the recovery process. 

Please pray that the pain will go away and I will be back to moving around as easily as I was before this last week. Please pray that there are no further complications. And please pray that in April there will be no delays or postponements in getting the prosthetic and learning to walk, because of this pain issue. 

Thank you everyone for your support and prayers. We could not do this without you. 

Lots of pain

Unfortunately the last four days , off and on, I have been experiencing very severe pain in my stump, as well as, in my phantom leg. I do have moments of relief and thankfully I have been able to sleep some nights, however, this is been the hardest part of my recovery so far.

I am writing this blog to ask for your extra prayers. I would like the pain to just stop altogether, but if not I will ask for prayer for the strength to endure it and prayer for the wisdom for the doctors to figure out what’s going on.

Tomorrow (Monday), David and I are going into Boston. I already had needed to go to pick up a prescription and get a blood test at the hospital so we are going to hopefully get an appointment to see an orthopedic doctor as well. Unfortunately, my surgeon is out of town, I heard from her via email today. If I can’t I get an appointment to see an orthopedic doctor then I will probably be going to the emergency room at children’s hospital.

Please pray (if you see this tonight) that I can sleep. Please pray that the car ride, which takes at least an hour, is not unbearably painful. And please pray that everything is ok with my stump, that there are no major problems and that the pain subsides and we can continue on with the recovery. 

Thank you all for your prayers and support. I know God is with me, but I will be honest that this has been a hard week. I want to be honest because I know there are a lot of people out there who are going through their own struggles, who may feel like they’re doing something wrong because they are having a hard time dealing with what God has brought into their lives. 

I have said this before, and I’m going to say it again, I believe that God is big enough and filled with enough grace and mercy to let me have days where I struggle, days where I am angry, days where I’m sad. But I also believe that this God is always with me and is faithful to work even my angry, sad, mad, doubtful days into something beautiful for my good. And maybe because the pain right now has subsided a little I can say that I know that there is joy even in this hard time, but I don’t necessarily say that when I’m screaming in pain. And I think that God is ok with that. I don’t know why he lets the pain happen, that’s a whole other blog post and debate, but when I focus on what I do know (after the pain subsides and I can focus) then I can find the joy. So what do I know? Besides how much pain I’m in. ???? Well, I know that it is God’s nature to be good, loving, kind, merciful, full of grace, etc. I know that I have support from my husband (which also backs up all the stuff about God cause God brought him to me at just the right time) and I know that God is with me through all of this, I am his child and I know that I might not be able to do everything, but I can “through Him who gives me strength” (Philippians 4:13). 

I know there are a lot of people out there who are going through a lot of different “pains” in their life. Maybe right now what you’re going through is emotional, or maybe it is physical, or maybe it’s both. Maybe it’s the pain of losing someone, or maybe it’s the challenge of a life change you weren’t expecting, or maybe it’s a daily struggle with pain and depression. First, like I said before I think there are times when we just scream and cry. And I think that God is big enough to handle that, and not surprised by it. You’re screaming and crying might be completely different than mine, it might even not be an audible screaming and crying, but we all have times when we just are in immense pain. I just want to encourage you if you’re there that if you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ He is there with you. And like I said before He is big enough to give you the grace to get mad, sad, angry, swear, yell, scream. But when you have a moment, where you can focus a little bit, here’s a word of encouragement. And please don’t take this as just someone preaching to you, who has no idea what it’s like. Hear this from someone who did a lot of swearing and screaming of her own this week. Take a moment and try to focus on the things that you do know about God. 

If you don’t know a lot about God, ask him who he is. And get a bible and read about who he is. Sometimes I even just google something like “verses on God’s goodness” or “verses on God’s mercy“. The Bible I believe is God’s words to us so what better way to find out who he is than to read His words. 

Hear is something cool that I have learned at some point in my journey with God. There’s a scripture in Philippians where he actually gives us a great encouragement for how to find joy. In Philippians 4 Paul starts out by saying “always be full of joy” (verse 4). Sometimes I get mad at Paul for what he says because he is a little blunt, but I do believe it is God’s inspired word and I do believe that God wants our lives to be full of joy. All right, so Paul how do we be full of joy? Then Paul says “do not worry about anything” and goes on by saying that we should ask God for what we need and thank him for what he’s done. But then after that Paul say something that is often missed. He says we should “fix our thoughts…” or like what I’ve been saying try and focus. Focus on what you know to be true about God and what is good about your life, even though there is pain. 

OK so I guess what I thought would be a short post turned out to be a lot longer. And I’m actually getting very tired. But thankfully God allowed me to have the strength and time without pain in order to write this post. I encourage you to write down some of the things that you know to be true about God. Things that are honorable and true and right about your situation. Write down scripture you find where God promises things like “he will never leave us or forsake us” (Deuteronomy 31:6) so that the times where you need to focus on what is true…, you have somewhere to easily reference, especially when you’re not feeling good.

Just so you know this blog post has been more of a reminder for me than anything, but I hope it will encourage someone out there too. 

Always with love, Angela #oneleggedwoman

Stiches are OUT!

Thank you guys for praying for no pain! Besides the seconds of pain when she tugged and cut the stiches, it really wasn’t that bad. It went very quickly and now that we’re done there is no extra pain. 

Dr. Spencer said the infection looks good and everything is healing very well. Right now we are sitting in the NOPCO waiting area, waiting to get a new, smaller, shrinkers. The shrinker is the thing I have to wear around my stump to shape and compress the stump. It is made of an elastic sweatpants type material. 

Now we are in the car headed home. When we picked up the new shrinkers we were able to meet the prosthetists and talk with her about a lot of things. Everything from the casting of the stump, to how the knee works, and all the different types of prosthetics there are available. I am so excited, I feel like my life is going to be so much more amazing than it was even before a year ago when my knee froze up. I haven’t been able to walk normally probably since I was a child and I am so pumped to be able to do so much that I haven’t been able to do for so long. I know there still a long road ahead but it just seems so close and I’m just so excited, so encouraged and very grateful to God that he has brought me to this place in my life. 

Thank you again everyone for praying, God is good and very merciful and I am feeling better than I ever thought I would have felt. 

Now time to go home and rest. ❤️

Maybe some stitches out today…

Hey everyone this is going to be a short post because I need to go get ready to leave for the doctor. Not sure how many will read it before 11am EST but that is when my doctors appointment is today. It is most likely that some and maybe all my stiches are going to be coming out today. I was going to discribe the difficulty of it but for those of you with weak stomachs just know it’s not going to be a fun time. 

Please pray for the least amount of pain possible, or no pain, no pain would be nice. ????

The infection looks a lot better and I’m almost done with my antibiotics. We’ll see how Dr. Spencer feels about it and what she says and I’ll be updating everyone after. Praise God and thank you all for praying, it could have been so much worse and we are very thankful for God’s healing and that the oral antibiotics cleared it up. 

I will update everyone after the appointment. No promises of a long blog post right after, it maybe the next day when I feel like typing a lot, but you can get short updates on my Facebook page @theadventuresofaoneleggedwoman

Thank you for your prayers and support! ❤️